Post from http://paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/06/day-55-diabetes.html
"I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there will be a cure for diabetes in the coming years because when I was diagnosed I was told that in my lifetime there will be a cure, in this hoping for a cure and not effectively investigating the cause of diabetes through going through my life and seeing what exactly triggered it and how I created it as myself
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to put faith in a cure when diabetes is
a $90 billion a year industry, and within the capitalistic system, where profit
is the goal of the game of money, the companies who manufactures diabetes medicines,
machines and tools are not willing to let go of that money in order to support
a cure - so goes with all disease and illness
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed a system wherein as a child we are bombarded with images on commercials showing happy, outgoing, cartoon characters that
are the logos and mascots for high sugar cereals, wherein we as children
connect these images to what we want because of the imagery within the
commercials, only with consideration for profit and not the quality of life
that the child lives as most children then end up becoming addicted to sugar
without knowing it, and live their lives consuming foods that they were
programmed to consume as a child
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed a system wherein the only consideration of
value in this life is profit, allowing companies to justify feeding people
sugary food that has no real support for the body, only support for profit, so
that the companies can make profit and support the capitalistic system
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed a system wherein there are governmental
institutions that regulate food, that are supposed to regulate food, but only
have the real consideration for/as money, because if they actually had
consideration for/as life within the food that we consume many of the products
on the shelves would not exist
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed a corrupt system where the only value is money
allowing ourselves to feed ourselves and to be fed mass amounts of sugar to
keep us happy wherein we are not ever told to consider what we put into our
body and the biochemistry that happens within the body when we consume what we
consume with consideration of what is best for life as the body and physical
well being of ourselves
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to support diabetes research funding
that says that they are researching for a cure for both types of diabetes when
really they are only creating new ways of monitoring diabetes for further
profit within the capitalistic system and burying opportunities to find cures
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail to realize that there already
have been cures that have been reported in underground news but have been
suppressed by the medicine giants that rake in billions a year from diabetics
showing that there will only ever be real medicine as cures when life is valued
within a new economic system that stops they interplay of money and value and
profit, and gives money equally to everyone, where all are haves, and life is
valued equally throughout the planet in equality and oneness, where life becomes equally dignified.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put trust and faith in doctors and
medicine to support me as life when in this game of money the only thing that
they really care about is if I have money to support myself as life and they do
not in fact care about myself as life at all or the doctors who really
understand medicine would have supported a cure and not further monitoring
devices and tools in which diabetics are dependent on for the rest of their lives.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that diabetes was caused due
to an `auto-immune` disease, wherein the cause is easily defined without actual
investigation as to exactly why and how I ended up creating diabetes within myself,
or why and how the immune system started to attack the pancreas, in what and
how I lived before having diabetes that lead to me being diagnosed with
diabetes = what triggered diabetes within the body, and how to solve that problem.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I am my
body in fact and only through the mind have I separated myself from the body as
life and through allowing myself to be programmed into/as this world in
accepting and allowing the system within and without did I accept myself as
separation of/as the body, not realizing that I am able to communicate with the
body in equality and oneness when/as standing equal and one to the body in all
ways where I communicate using breath and being here as me as life in self-awareness as the body
as the breath as all the inner workings of the body in equality and oneness
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear going through life with
diabetes because of the constant necessity in having to manage diabetes
throughout my entire life, and have to deal with the consequences if I do not
manage it correctly as well wherein I am able to lose limbs, go blind, have the
kidney's fail due to improper management of diabetes and in this fear of
going through life with diabetes, fear seeing the evidence that I am not taking
good care of myself as a diabetic through high blood sugar readings and in this
fear not test but only go from how I physically
feel allowing myself to
compromise myself further and in this want to end my existence here
because of the suffering I believe I will go through, instead of
allowing myself to become a test subject of how and why diabetes
manifests within the body so that I am able to support a cure as that is
what I would like for myself.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize and understand that
there is something completely fucking wrong with diabetes when I can test on two
different meters and get two different blood test results using the same drop
of blood wherein one will say that I am low when I am not and one will say that
I am fine, causing one to believe if one were using the mis-calibrated machine
since the start of diabetes that one is low when in fact one is not and that
the blood sugar is fine when it is not, which end up causing more issues within
the body of diabetics which further cost money to correct which in turn fuels
the capitalistic system more
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust this world will take
care of
me because I am a diabetic and I need the insulin to live, not realizing
that
this world does not In fact give a fuck about life, it only cares if I
have the
money in which to further support this system, and that it will only
care about
me if I generate money, in this not realizing that some people have to
pay
outrageous amounts of money to get the supplies that they need because
they do
not have coverage for the supplied that they need to LIVE and in this
lack of having coverage for the supplies,
compromise themselves through using needles over and over again until
they can
no longer be used, which causes further problems, not test as often as
they
should to effectively monitor their blood sugar which causes more
problem that inevitably lead to paying more money to correct or develop
the ability to live with the problems
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept a system wherein if one does
not have money to support oneself as life then one is left to die and starve in
this world, and in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself
to state `this is North America, we don't allow this to happen to people` when
we are in fact absolutely responsible for the starvation across the world, and
absolutely responsible for the poverty even within our own borders, and that we
only give a fuck about a person if they first have money, as shown through the
stigma of/as being a bum
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept a system where life is not
supported in any way what so every shown through the food that is accepted and
allowed to be consumed by the human wherein it creates detrimental effects to
the physical body and wherein the cause of such diseases relating from such
diets is only said to have been caused by auto-immune deficiencies and that the
bodies are to blame, not taking into consideration the diets that have been
supported where everything of the physical is not taken into consideration of
what is best for the physical, the only thing that is taken into consideration
is money and sex where diets are supported for money and people go on diets to
become slim and get sex
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that something is
fucked
up in this world where we allow children to eat food that we as adults
would
never allow ourselves to eat because of the high sugar content, and yet
we
allow ourselves to go out to a store and buy these products for kids
because
they are `for` kids, not realizing that the child has a body that is
equal and
one to as our bodies as physical life and it works in the same
properties
wherein it becomes programmed into/as a pattern through/as the input
that is
placed within it, allowing myself to be irresponsible at effectively
raising a child in this world and in this I forgive myself that I have
not accepted and
allowed myself to not realize that the child is equal and one to me and
must be
supported in the same way with food as I support my body
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when/as I consume
fructose the liver breaks it down into a poison basically and that the only
thing that is able to be consumed that has fructose in it are fruits because
they have the fibre necessary to support the break down of fructose, making
fruit drinks, that which have been programmed and supported as good, the worst
thing that can be consumed as it is basically injecting poison into the body,
because the fruit drinks do not have the fibre within them, only the sugar and
juice of the fruit.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to
allow a system where disease and illness are not supported with cures
and where the diseases and illnesses are purposely supported within the system
in order to generate more money, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to not realize that we are humans are absolutely evil because
money is only the tools in which we use to express ourselves and we are evil in
using money, in this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed
myself to realize that the human must undergo extensive change in order to ever
be life itself instead of the destruction that it has become now.
I commit myself to
show this world as a diabetic how fucked up the system has become wherein
diabetes is actually supported in this world through diet structures and the
foods that we consume as children and eventually become addicted to
I commit myself to
live as an example of what can become of ourselves if we allow ourselves to eat
what we want when we want, wherein I now fight with heaven every day where
heaven tries to take me from this existence and only through the injections and
management of the body do I delay the movement into/as heaven
I commit myself to
standing in this world system as support for life in supporting myself as life
as being a diabetic doing the best for me as life in monitoring the diabetes
and researching what is in fact supportive for the body through what we consume,
and not demonizing one food or the next as it is shown that all food types are
essential, it is only what we as humanity have produced that has become fucked
up as our starting point is fucked up = money, self-interest and profit
I commit myself to
support an equal money system where the value in life is life itself and where
life will then be truly supported to prosper and where actual cures will be
produced because the goal will no longer be money but quality of life equally
lived throughout the globe
I commit myself in
supporting myself as life in doing what is best for me in monitoring the sugar
levels and doing the best that I can in each breath here to care, not manage,
but care for myself as a diabetic, and in this establish an effective communication
with/as the body of/as what it needs to support itself through removing the
mental distraction and sticking in breath."
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